It's because I'm jealous. Jealous that John has somewhere he belongs and I don't.
I honestly thought that I had gotten over the stage where I confused hurt or sadness with anger, but I guess I was wrong.
John told me that I need to tap into those sad feelings before they become anger because when the sadness is ignored, it builds up and then finally explodes in the form of anger, but I just...can't. I guess I've been surpressing sad feelings for so many years I don't even notice them anymore until it's too late.
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